Needing a change.

Being a mom of three has been a defining term for me. When asked describe yourself, that is the first thing out of my mouth. If I asked you to describe yourself what would yours be? With my oldest starting kindergarten,  i was beginning to feel stuck in a rut, and unhappy. My routine is the same everyday, and I have no time for myself. After deciding to lose weight I thought about the decision, and realized it isn’t just the weight that needs changed, it’s also the mentality, that I need to do things for myself too. My children will always come first,  but I Am Important. First thing I did was cut my hair off, 6 inches later, I am feeling more energized and ready to stay on my path to becoming a better parent, by becoming a better me. 
Taking time to be a better you, makes you better for others

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Needing a change.

Losing weight.Gaining confidence. 

I am one day away from my three week weigh in. I started this year out with too much of everything. Too much stuff, too much stress, and definately too much weight. I still have a lot of weight to lose, and I’m no where near relieving all my stress, but i am working everything down in pieces. I lost 6 lbs the first two weeks, and can fit back in my shorts from last year. The biggest thing I have gained is more confidence, and a lot more energy. I take my children for walks at night now to the park or just for a stroll and I can jump around and play. I feel more at peace with myself and it’s only 6 lbs. As a mom I feel it can get so easy to be caught up in life, and not have time for yourself. I will say that when I made the decision to spend time on myself this year I felt guilty, but I realize now that my children will get the best version of their mother if I am confident,  energized, and relaxed. 

It isn’t selfish to take care of yourself! 

Losing weight.Gaining confidence. 

Palms down

I know in my very first post I shared that I attend church basically every week. My husband and I attended church, and volunteered every week for quite a while then at the end of my last pregnancy we had dwindled down to not volunteering, and then not going. We blamed it on being tired or “burnt out”. We had our daughters first birthday and realized we hadn’t been to church except maybe a hand full of times throughout her first year of life. One Saturday morning our five year old woke up and all he would say is, “I want to go to church today!”. He repeated this phrase at least a dozen times over a five hours spread, and my husband and I decided we needed to go. I text my mom and asked her to save us a seat for service. Since then we have gone every weekend except maybe two for sickness. One thing my main pastor always says is be palms down. If your palms are up you are still grasping onto things. If you are palms down then you are relying solely on God. I have had a whirl wind since meeting my husband to present, and there have been many times where I have seen my life going down, at those moments I go palms down. Obviously what I have been doing on my own isn’t working, and I need God to take control. I think the greatest gift God gave me was my mother. 

I have many blessing in my life, a great family, amazing husband, and the most beautiful kids, and truely remarkable inlaws, but my mom is the greatest gift. She raised me despite a multitude of trails and tribulations. She gave me memories of Disney on ice, Rollero, water parks, camping, and so many more. She has always been there for me, sometimes resulting in a lecture I don’t want, but i need. I post a lot about how my house is messy but my kids and I spend time together. My mom was a super woman our house was always spotless and we did things. I to this day can’t understand her compassion and the level of patience she is able to keep, but i am grateful. When I pray, I pray that God makes me a light onto other leading them to him, and I truly believe that’s my mom. I want to share a very common scripture with a twist my pastor taught my husband and I before we married. 

My mom is patient, my mom is kind. My  mom does not any, my mom does not boast. My mom is not proud. My mom is not rude, my mom is not self seeking, my mom is not easily angered, my mom keeps no record of wrongs. 

1 Corinthians 13:4-6 

The verse continues, but replacing the word love with my mom, it is the truth. Thank you mom, for being you, and thank you for making me be me. Right now I am at a moment in life realizing I need to be palms down, because what I am doing , isn’t working. I will be fine, because I have an amazing role model, and a loving God. 

Do you need to be palms down? 

Palms down

One step, or pound, at a time.

I posted last week that I was tired of being tired, and definitely done with my being over weight. Starting last Monday I ate healthy and watched my portions. Started drinking only water, and lost four pounds last week! I am more determined than ever to get the weight off. My husband is being very encouraging, and my kids are enjoying working out with me. I am a mother of three little children, Y’all knew I was not going to a gym. On a side note, using your one year old as a weight to bench press works great! I am sure there are other mom’s out there that feel too tired, too over worked, and too depressed. You all can do it! I take a vitamin B complex to jump start my energy with my breakfast in the morning. Throughout the day I eat three meals, and two snacks, each time with a whole bottle of water. Started working out, and felt like I wasn’t doing enough, or not working my whole body. I made a workout plan that works my whole body, and can easily be done at home, even with three kids. I told my husband yesterday he better get it together, and stop eating double bacon cheese burgers, cause how will he feel when I lose all the weight and look awesome. He will feel bad still being the same. His response…. No I will feel awesome! Everyone will see how amazing you look, and how I’m not fit, and they will know I must just be awesome in the sack! So, needless to say, he is having a great time. My goal is to eventually reach 130 pounds. That is my pre any pregnancy weight. Hope I’ve encouraged a few to join me. 

God will never give you more than you can handle. You’ve got this! 

One step, or pound, at a time.

Exhausted.

As I am writing this my two boys, five and three, are running through the house with papers, and my little one year old girl is ripping apart a tissue. So, why am I writing this instead of stopping them and cleaning the mess? I will tell you why, because life is exhausting! Life as a mom of three children that are messy and wild is exhausting. My sink is full of dirty dishes, my laundry from last weekend still needs folded, and I am taking a break. My kids are fed, they are alive, and I watered the lawn, so I as a mom have done a great job so far. My kids and I have played together all morning, and I am leaving to take them to the park in twenty minutes (if everyone can find their shoes). My kids are going to remember in 20 years that mom always played with them and had time for them. You know what they wouldn’t remember? That mom cleaned the house so well and it was great having to stay home while mom did laundry and dishes. So, when will I do the dishes? When they nap after the park I will do dishes…. maybe. 
Being a good mom isn’t being perfect it’s being perfect in their eyes. 

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It has been a while.

It has been over a year since I last wrote on this blog, and announced my pregnancy. I did have a healthy baby girl, that came with a whole new set of challenges. She turned one in February and through the grace of God everything has been going well. I have been increasingly noticing I have less and less energy lately. I weighed my self and I admit I was devastated when I read that my 5’3″ frame is holding 182 lbs (ugh, did I really just admit that online?). This is the heaviest I have ever been, and I read the blogs about “loving your miracle producing body”, and “just know you created life it’s ok if you are flabby”, but my weight is causing me to be a “bad” mom. I have no energy to play with my kids, and when we are out i just sit. When my husband and I met I was at 135 , so that is my goal weight. I just want to have more energy for my kids. 

Don’t wish me luck, Pray for my strength!

My oldest starts kindergarten this August, and I really want to be at least twenty pounds down when I drop him off for his first day. In a world full of cross fit, or fast food, I need to find a medium ground. I feel intimidated by the super in shape cross fit mom’s, and I don’t want to be in the let’s get fast food everyday category either! Hoping to make this year a year of self rejuvenation. Not just in weight but in faith, and habits.  Don’t wish me luck, pray for my strength! 

It has been a while.

We’re Pregnant!

I found out I was pregnant Wednesday and decided to keep it a secret. With Father’s Day being today I wanted to surprise my husband. We went out to dinner with my parents, my sister and our kids all was normal. Then I asked the waitress to take a picture of us. Little did my family know that I had already made plans the day before with the restaurant to announce my pregnancy. When the waitress came to take our picture with my phone I had it set to video, and the manager came over with a big sign that said little baby Gebo arriving February 2016. And the waitress said everyone say Crystal is pregnant, instead of the usual say cheese bit. I was excited it went just like I had planned my family is excited, hoping it’s a girl, to accompany the two boys we already have. Then I watched the video to see how everyone looked. The waitress didn’t record anything except the table with people talking in the background for maybe 20 seconds max. She completely missed the whole thing. At first I was disappointed, then I realized I still got the effect, I still have an amazing life growing within me, and I am sure the waitress was nervous and didn’t realize what she had done. Still a great surprise for my husband and family! I should have known something like that would happen I was already upset the sign I spent 45 minutes trying to replicate from Pinterest didn’t look anything like my picture muse. Sometimes perfect isn’t perfect. 

Anyone else have a pregnancy announcement failure?  

 

We’re Pregnant!