Needing a change.

Being a mom of three has been a defining term for me. When asked describe yourself, that is the first thing out of my mouth. If I asked you to describe yourself what would yours be? With my oldest starting kindergarten,  i was beginning to feel stuck in a rut, and unhappy. My routine is the same everyday, and I have no time for myself. After deciding to lose weight I thought about the decision, and realized it isn’t just the weight that needs changed, it’s also the mentality, that I need to do things for myself too. My children will always come first,  but I Am Important. First thing I did was cut my hair off, 6 inches later, I am feeling more energized and ready to stay on my path to becoming a better parent, by becoming a better me. 
Taking time to be a better you, makes you better for others

Needing a change.

Losing weight.Gaining confidence. 

I am one day away from my three week weigh in. I started this year out with too much of everything. Too much stuff, too much stress, and definately too much weight. I still have a lot of weight to lose, and I’m no where near relieving all my stress, but i am working everything down in pieces. I lost 6 lbs the first two weeks, and can fit back in my shorts from last year. The biggest thing I have gained is more confidence, and a lot more energy. I take my children for walks at night now to the park or just for a stroll and I can jump around and play. I feel more at peace with myself and it’s only 6 lbs. As a mom I feel it can get so easy to be caught up in life, and not have time for yourself. I will say that when I made the decision to spend time on myself this year I felt guilty, but I realize now that my children will get the best version of their mother if I am confident,  energized, and relaxed. 

It isn’t selfish to take care of yourself! 

Losing weight.Gaining confidence. 

Palms down

I know in my very first post I shared that I attend church basically every week. My husband and I attended church, and volunteered every week for quite a while then at the end of my last pregnancy we had dwindled down to not volunteering, and then not going. We blamed it on being tired or “burnt out”. We had our daughters first birthday and realized we hadn’t been to church except maybe a hand full of times throughout her first year of life. One Saturday morning our five year old woke up and all he would say is, “I want to go to church today!”. He repeated this phrase at least a dozen times over a five hours spread, and my husband and I decided we needed to go. I text my mom and asked her to save us a seat for service. Since then we have gone every weekend except maybe two for sickness. One thing my main pastor always says is be palms down. If your palms are up you are still grasping onto things. If you are palms down then you are relying solely on God. I have had a whirl wind since meeting my husband to present, and there have been many times where I have seen my life going down, at those moments I go palms down. Obviously what I have been doing on my own isn’t working, and I need God to take control. I think the greatest gift God gave me was my mother. 

I have many blessing in my life, a great family, amazing husband, and the most beautiful kids, and truely remarkable inlaws, but my mom is the greatest gift. She raised me despite a multitude of trails and tribulations. She gave me memories of Disney on ice, Rollero, water parks, camping, and so many more. She has always been there for me, sometimes resulting in a lecture I don’t want, but i need. I post a lot about how my house is messy but my kids and I spend time together. My mom was a super woman our house was always spotless and we did things. I to this day can’t understand her compassion and the level of patience she is able to keep, but i am grateful. When I pray, I pray that God makes me a light onto other leading them to him, and I truly believe that’s my mom. I want to share a very common scripture with a twist my pastor taught my husband and I before we married. 

My mom is patient, my mom is kind. My  mom does not any, my mom does not boast. My mom is not proud. My mom is not rude, my mom is not self seeking, my mom is not easily angered, my mom keeps no record of wrongs. 

1 Corinthians 13:4-6 

The verse continues, but replacing the word love with my mom, it is the truth. Thank you mom, for being you, and thank you for making me be me. Right now I am at a moment in life realizing I need to be palms down, because what I am doing , isn’t working. I will be fine, because I have an amazing role model, and a loving God. 

Do you need to be palms down? 

Palms down

One step, or pound, at a time.

I posted last week that I was tired of being tired, and definitely done with my being over weight. Starting last Monday I ate healthy and watched my portions. Started drinking only water, and lost four pounds last week! I am more determined than ever to get the weight off. My husband is being very encouraging, and my kids are enjoying working out with me. I am a mother of three little children, Y’all knew I was not going to a gym. On a side note, using your one year old as a weight to bench press works great! I am sure there are other mom’s out there that feel too tired, too over worked, and too depressed. You all can do it! I take a vitamin B complex to jump start my energy with my breakfast in the morning. Throughout the day I eat three meals, and two snacks, each time with a whole bottle of water. Started working out, and felt like I wasn’t doing enough, or not working my whole body. I made a workout plan that works my whole body, and can easily be done at home, even with three kids. I told my husband yesterday he better get it together, and stop eating double bacon cheese burgers, cause how will he feel when I lose all the weight and look awesome. He will feel bad still being the same. His response…. No I will feel awesome! Everyone will see how amazing you look, and how I’m not fit, and they will know I must just be awesome in the sack! So, needless to say, he is having a great time. My goal is to eventually reach 130 pounds. That is my pre any pregnancy weight. Hope I’ve encouraged a few to join me. 

God will never give you more than you can handle. You’ve got this! 

One step, or pound, at a time.

Worried for Others

I want to start this post with a question. Have you or do you know someone who has had a miscarriage or still birth? I do.  According to medical daily’s November post by Susan Scutti, “Ten to 25 percent of all recognized pregnancies end in miscarriage, and up to 70 percent of first-trimester miscarriages are caused by chromosomal anomalies.” A couple of the ladies that I work with have recently had a miscarriage and a still birth. I feel truly heart broken for them since I heard the news of each. As a mom I understand the emended amount of love you feel for that tiny amazing life you are carrying, and I come to tears just thinking those beautiful ladies had to experience the loss of that life. I pray for them to find strength in God, and be at peace knowing heaven is everyone’s end goal and their miracles were chosen by God to never experience pain or suffering, heartache or loss, and they will forever be loved and remembered.  Now that my husband and I are wanting to add one more little one to our family I am worried about how it will affect those ladies. Is that ridiculous to think? I know that they are in pain and I don’t want to make that any worse than it already is and has been for them. I know when I do become pregnant they will feel happy for me and never tell me I hurt them. I’m not sure the best way to handle a situation based solely on feelings (never have I done well with emotions).  What are some ways you have handled this kind of situation?

Usually I end with a quote of my own, today I end with a Bible verse.

The Lord is close to the broken hearted and saves those that are crushed in spirit. Psalms 34:18 

Worried for Others

Today is the Day!

Today is the day I get my Mirena removed to try for our third and final child. I am excited, and nervous (I might throw up on the doctor, let’s pray that doesn’t happen). I am so excited I have been contemplating waking my husband up when I get home from work  to start the baby making process right away! Then I start thinking about telling my family I am pregnant again and it gives me anxiety! My mom has one child from each “marriage” , and my dad only has me, so let’s just say they aren’t the type of people open to big families (not that 3 is big). My mom kept telling me after my last baby that was plenty, go get fixed. I enjoy my mothers use of words. Fixed, I imagine myself as a wild animal when I hear that, it makes me giggle. It’s not like I have 20 kids and live in a shack and we are starving, by no means are we starving, maybe we could do with a bit less😜. My husband and I do fine, we have a home, and we can afford all of our needs and most wants. I mean we eat out like 4 times a week, clearly we are not starving. By the way I don’t think Taco Bell should count as eating out, you bring it home! So, anyway I want excitement for my pregnancy when it happens and I am worried that isn’t the feed back I will get. Anyone else have family that doesn’t think before they speak and then tries to back pedal there words for a half hour after? I have some experience with that.  So, regardless I am excited, my husband is excited and my kids can’t tell Grammy, at least not yet. Hoping for a big surprise for everyone soon.
Remember your life is your creating, make something wonderful.

Today is the Day!

Party of Five?

My husband and I have been having a lot of discussion about adding another baby to our family of four. How do you make that decision? Right now if both kids are crying or crazy we can each get one. If there is a third child one of them is on the loose! We have two boys, moms with boys can back me up on this Boys Are Wild! What if we have a third boy? Do you ever see those parents that look like they survived a hurricane and their kids are acting crazy and all the parent is just quiet? Those parents have boys! Really though, I miss having a tiny baby and I am ready for our third, whether it be a boy or a girl (Please be a girl, please be a girl). So we have decided that I will have my birth control removed tomorrow and we are hoping to become pregnant soon.

Remember to live life In the moment, tomorrow is a new adventure!

Party of Five?